Wow Wow Wow.
It has been almost two months since I last posted and I’m not quite sure how I feel about that.
Part of me needed the break mentally. I was taking a summer class, working, and just doing life. But on the other side of things writing just felt…hard. And the writing that didn’t feel hard was content I didn’t want to express to the world-wide interweb so my thoughts have only transpired by pen onto paper lately.
There are pros and cons to that. Part of me feels lost when it comes to this blog. There are things I don’t want to be completely transparent about. Topics I don’t want to discuss on the internet and challenges I don’t often voice out loud. I have been dealing with a lot of internal struggles lately. Mainly due to anxiety, but that’s nothing new.
That being said, I thought I would do a little update/what life has been life lately post because I’m not really in the mood to get super deep on here.
My last post was June 29th so let’s start with July.
On the fourth of July, my boyfriend and I went to the sunflower fields in the Dixon area. Highly recommend.
And then mid-July my family and I took a short day trip to Bodega Bay. I had never been there before so I highly recommend as well. If you like the beach, then its the place to be. But if you like warm beaches then maybe you should go somewhere different because it is not warm. Its pretty though and the overcast beach vibe is pretty aesthetically pleasing if you ask me.
At the end of July, wow I did a lot more in July than I originally thought, we went on a weekend trip to Pismo Beach. In fact, I’d rather be sitting on the beach in this very moment because I LOVED IT. We stayed in a small cottage hotel and could walk down to the beach in less than three minutes which is very ideal. I could’ve stayed at least a week.
The first day we were beach bums. No complaints here though.
The second day we got to ride ATVs on what seemed like an endless amount of sand dunes.
This was the most delicious meal I have had in a while. All gluten and dairy free. AMEN! ALso fun fact. I love sweet potato fries so much.
The last day came and went way too fast. We woke up and I ran three misty miles on the beach. Then we went on a hike and found a nude beach on accident. But you know, you do you. Then we got acai bowls because I am obsessed with them. Quite literally. No shame.
Then came August. August has been pretty uneventful in terms of traveling. Translation: I have not gone anywhere exciting and it literally pains me to say that because I am itching to go on an adventure.
Other than that, less exciting things have started up again such as school. Week one is down and I have a whole heck of a lot more to go. The only light at the end of the tunnel this semester is the fact that I transfer in January to a four-year. Finally.
Oh yeah, work is also a thing. Gotta make some cash to survive, you know.
Oh yeah! Something exciting started this summer. It involves one of my favorite things, running. I am training for a marathon along with one of my best friends who lives in another state sadly. BUT we are pumped. Literally so pumped.
I also started a YouTube channel. Which is quite awkward for me to announce or say out loud or type but that’s a thing. I have wanted to do so for a very long time. In fact, I did about two years ago but then I let what others thought and my own insecurities about it get in the way. Also, I think it was just poor timing. However, I still had a passion and itch to produce content and share my story with others while also just being able to have a platform to talk about life and all of the grand and not so grand aspects that come with that. So who the heck cares what other people think. If I want to share my life I can and I love the community that is produced from channels so why not pursue something like that. My ultimate goal or reason behind creating a channel is to let other people know that they are not alone in what they struggle with. I don’t want other people to feel the way I used to feel. People need to know that mental illness is not something that should define you, but instead you can grow through it. So there ya have it.
I have come to a standstill when it comes to anything interesting I have done recently. School is underway now so that will be occupying much of my time but I don’t really mind. I’m one of those weirdos that likes learning.
Other than that I have been dealing with lots of fun stuff (sarcastic) mentally and physically but I wont get into that in this post. Its pretty frustrating at the moment so all I would be doing is typing my frustrations out and I don’t feel like doing that right now.
Besides all of the things that have taken place in the past two months I have realized I am deeply thinking about a lot of aspects of my life. School, work, future jobs, future life, what I really want to do with my life, passions, healing mentally and physically, growing as a person. There are lots of things that I want to talk about on here, it’s just a matter of me being able to put my thoughts into words and sometimes that is difficult. Hopefully as I begin the transition of life in the next few months I will have more to say, but for now I am going to sign off because this is way too long.
Thanks for reading this is you made it this far. Youre the real MVP.